3.16.2006
is there a cure for muddle-headedness
streaks of bad luck keep shooting at me. i cant and i dunno how to siam.sometimes the closet mega idiot creeps out of my (normal) jus-a-lil-idioty self to perform stupid tasks, and upon accomplishing them, vanish back into my body. that leaves me having to face the aftermath. wathefck (i curse at an alarming speed hence the spelling).
i H-A-T-E to lose stuff. i noe this is like saying saying the sky is blue cos nobody likes to lose stuff mah. but i have been losing alot of stuff recently and tht realli pisses me off. i cant even remember where was the last time i saw the lost items. and its realli fking annoying tat the said lost items include MONEY too. now you noe why.
if theres a way to quantify anger, then those boiling inside me right now can probably fill like 1million blks of hdb flats. its a lame analogy i noe but i the biggest container that i can think of is a hdb flat. ya i am a heartlander LARH. i think i just found my pet peeve numero uno man. yes. its LOSING MONEY. i mean put-in-pocket-or-somewhere-then-suddenly-disappear losing, not betted-on-soccer-and-lost losing. u get it? its the sheer helplessness that is freaking my soul out. fuckfuckfuck.
and it sucks even more that many more personal stuff was lost. i dunno why i am becoming so goddamn muddleheaded lately. wonder if it has got anything to do with sighting the cat of the damned colour sometime ago. o well i AM superstitious.
so ya that pretty much sums up my life now. and the icing on the cake is the revelation that was made clear to us the day before by zhang lao shi. here goes.. biomedical sciences and trad chinese med cannot possibly go well together. they are abit like two parallel lines/lines gg in OPPOSITE directions.... like hey THANKS to whoever came up with this brilliant idea!! 63 lives will be messed up by YOU as a result. or mabbe its just ME who will become schizophrenic. that is if i live to finish this devil of a course(s).
p/s: congrats wans! realli happie for you! this news kinda perked up my shittified life. thanks gal!!
(I suprise myself. din noe that I am capable of having this kinda of feelings. *pat on my own back*)
recluse(d) at 14:59
